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mad mommy my fiery breath burns at the eyes of my sons calls out the tears sprung down their cheeks sends them huddling at my ankles stabbing guilt into my soul, yet never managing to puncture the supreme sense of irritation to which i feel so righteously entitled i declare myself an unfit mother, call friends to bitterly announce the fact, then impatiently proclaim that without children i’d be bored and more miserable stuck yet again in some corporate workplace with no one’s face to tape to the walls of my cubicle i prefer, oddly, to emerge as hydra when fresh urine has soaked my carpet or hot soup decorated my walls, with moments of calm in the storm and the pressure of necessity severing the fork-tongued head lashing out only for another to spring in its place when the winds change when the preeminently imperfect me spirals out of control, revealing my own horrifying humanity. unbearable cute and giggles try hard and fail at the permanent amputation of the evil in me. my heart breaks at my flaws, but my brain fosters partial appreciation of the villain, if only to model the grace of apology and acceptance and the importance of knowing one’s limits. posted by anna kiss @ 2/07/2007 11:59:00 PM |
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