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astonishment at the intersection of reality and intention it seems, at times, not possible that i could be responsible for this existence that i am the adult in this situation it seems futile to assume that i would not should not be the one screaming my head off, my emotional well being sprung a leak and steam pouring through in rageful glaring and guttural shouting it seems unreasonable that i should check myself become aware of my surroundings sustain the worldly order and let the abuses of all others slide in their forgetful sock-thrown-aside manner (that that should, in my mind, constitute abuse is equally asinine). and where do i step over the line between resentment and guilt? where is it? i do not ever see it, yet sense its immenseness in its indistinctness its significance shadows its slenderness it is there, yet immeasurable. i travel all about in the emotional war-zones of my house know not how to handle it know not how not to. my mind can see but my heart is blind i am selfish and i wear on everything leaving the impression of my sighs, indentations of my rolled eyes and bit lips in the carpet and the furniture and all over the faces of my spouse and children. posted by anna kiss @ 2/19/2007 12:44:00 AM |
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